Star-dragon-gazer

My day has been the best day I have had in a very long time. I got to spend three hours with my boyfriend, I got to kidnap his jacket, and I even got to get all grimy in class today. After a week of doing nothing but write a grant I was just thrilled to be able to work on the Ag classes John Deer Gator and I happily got my hands and arms all oily. I can still smell it but I am so far from caring its humorous. Then just the damn season that we are in is helping me a lot, well aside from the cold weather but I must deal with that. I am happily sitting in my room smiling about absolutely nothing and just remembering the past and how great my d

Why is it that I even bother? The past month has been horrible. Ive had a lack of sleep, and i've not been able to get back up from the metiphorical blows to my self esteem. I'm torn and beaten and yet no one seems to care. The truth is that I'm trying to hard to just stay, I dont want to leave this world, not yet. But as the days go on the more that I see that its not getting any better. Its killing me to see the people that I care about just slip away. I cant help it. I am lashing out and I cant stop myself. I stay locked up in my own mind with tears constantly running down my cheeks. I feel like i have no more reasons to really live. I'm t

Stolen from ~xlaughinghorrorx 1. When was the last time you cried? last week 2. Have you ever faked sick? no 3. What was the last lie you said? I hate you 4. Have you ever cried during a movie? yes 5. Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of? My good friend Corbet 6. Have you ever danced in the rain? yep 7. Have you ever been drunk? nope 8. Have you ever tried tried drugs? NEVA 9. Do you smoke? YUCK!! not gonna happen 10. What's the farthest you've ever gone on a dare? pretty much made out with someone. 11. What is your full name? Cindy Dawn Ketch 12. What is your blood-type? I forgot..... 13. Have y